It’s Still…All About Relationship

John 1:35-42

 

A Sermon Preached by Peter Ilgenfritz

January 16, 2005

University Congregational United Church of Christ

Seattle, Washington

 

I love this scripture, for it speaks to my longing for home.

“Home” has always been a good word for me.

It’s a word that seems to be somewhere beyond my reach, somewhere in my past,

But someplace that was safe and loving.

“Home” has always been a good word for me.

 

And yet… I have struggled, and often, with being at-home in myself.

 

When I was a teenager in Junior High, I struggled with changes in my family, with my body changing.  It all felt too much, too hard at times.  And at particularly hard times, I imagined taking my life, for I couldn’t imagine being at-home with all these changes taking place within me and around me.

 

In high school, I struggled with my growing awareness that I might be gay.  I didn’t know what to do about that.  I covered over my failures at dating and close friendships by being good at everything else.  I was not at all at-home with myself or with others. 

 

In college one day I was overwhelmed by the love of God.  I knew God loved me and I knew that I wanted to give my life over to loving God by being a minister.  But it was years before I told anyone about that.  I couldn’t imagine taking in this God who could love me and have a call for me.  I couldn’t imagine being at home with such amazing good news as God’s love. 

 

As an adult, I have struggled often with being at home in myself, and no more so than in the past several years. 

 

The last several years in our world, and in many of our lives, have been very hard years.  It is a hard time to be human.  It is a hard time to be at-home in a world which is so not-at-home with itself.

 

War, violence, dis-ease of many kinds, tsunamis of unbelievable proportions – no, it is not an easy time to be at home in the world, and at home in oneself.

 

We come from a long family tradition of people who have sought to escape this not-being-at-home through escape of many kinds.  Nicotene, alcohol, drugs, sex, shopping.  I understand that.  I really do.  It is hard to be at home in yourself when yourself is not how you want to be or to feel.

 

And I know that some of you know that while any of those escapes may provide some temporary relief – they have no lasting effect.  In fact, their effect is but more lostness, and more feeling far from home with ourselves and others.

 

I love this scripture for it speaks to my longing for home.

 

Two disciples follow Jesus.  One of them we learn is named Andrew, the other is never named.  Who is he?  Is he me?  Is he you? 

 

They follow Jesus, not sure what they see in him, maybe it is some kind of deep at-homeness in himself, some deep comfort in himself, knowing who he is.  

 

He turns and asks them, “What are you seeking? 

 

And they respond, “Where are you staying?”….  Where is your home?  

 

“Come and see”, Jesus says. 

 

And they spend the rest of the day at home with Jesus.

We have no idea what they did. 

But in that being-together at home with Jesus their lives where changed.

They knew what they didn’t know before.

They knew something they couldn’t keep to themselves – and before we know it Andrew goes and finds his brother Cephas and brings him to Jesus.

 

I believe that Jesus is not out-there somewhere but that Jesus makes his home right here in us.

When Andrew goes and brings his brother, Cephas, to Jesus, Jesus looks him in the eye and calls him by his true name, “You are ‘Peter’”.

 

When Jesus looks us in the eye and invites us to come and see where he is staying, he looks us in the eye and tells us our true name, “You are beloved.  You are God’s beloved child.  Come home to your true name.”

 

We need to be invited home, home to our true home and true name every day, several times a day. 

 

We need the gifts of home:

Listening spaces

And dreaming spaces.  

 

We need people who can listen to us.  To hear the stories of our lives.  Do you have a person like that in your life?  Too many of us are eating alone.  Too many of us have no people who can really listen to us.  We need each other as the church to be some of those people for each other.  We need to invite someone over to eat a meal with us, to have a cup of tea with us, to listen to the stories of our lives together.  Can you imagine doing that?  Could you take a step to do that today?

 

And we need to listen to God.  There are so many ways to do that.  I take time, every day, just to sit and listen for God.  I need that time and I encourage you to find 10 minutes a day just for you to be quiet and to listen to God.  Keep doing that each and every day and your life will be changed. 

 

And we need to dream.

This Martin Luther King weekend, we remember people who were at home in themselves in a time when the world was not at all at-home in itself.  A time of war, violence, hatred and fear of people who looked different than they did.  A time not unlike our time.  But in such a time, there were some people who were at home in themselves.  People who knew that Jesus made his home in them.  People who knew their true names, that they were beloved children of God, despite what others said about them.

 

Diane Nash was one of those people.  She was in her 20’s in the early 1960’s when she led the drive to desegregate busing in Nashville, Tennessee.  One day she was at a big news event with the Mayor of Nashville, Ben West.  They began their meeting with a prayer.  And they end of the prayer, Diane raised her head and said, “If we could pray together, why can’t we eat together?”   Can you imagine doing that?!  Being so at-home in yourself that you would say something like that in front of all those cameras – and to the mayor of the city?  Diane Nash must have been very at-home in God’s love and presence with her.

 

The mayor later said that something came over him and he had a change of heart right then and there.  He said yes, they ate together and the battle against desegregation in Nashville changed then and there.

 

When people are at home in themselves, they make others feel more at home in themselves as well.  Diane was at home in Jesus’ love for her and that love swept up the mayor of Nashville and the people of Nashville right in it. 

 

Breathe that in.

Breathe that out.

Know that the love of Jesus is right there in you,

inviting you to be at-home in yourself.  You are God’s beloved

Come and see.

 

Amen.